Everything’s perfect though.
My boyfriends perfect and i like him sosososoosososos much, he’s fantastic <3
---I’m happy with how I’m treating people. I’m happy with how things are going. I love feeling this way.
I feel like everything’s coming together perfectly. Its great c:
Goodnight tumblr :3
Then wham. I got so fucking upset. I feel like crying and screaming and sleeping and never waking up again.
I want to sleep forever. I don’t want to deal with this shit anymore. I don’t deserve all this. I hate feeling this way.
I’m so annoyed, and upset, and sad, and angry. I don’t even know why.
Fuck this.
I was there for so fucking long. Waiting…waiting for fucking nothing.
---I hope it stays this way <3
---I hate everything.
I hate everyone.
I hate everything.
I hate everyone.
I hate everything.
I hate everyone.
I hate everything.
I hate everyone.
How can you act so close to someone and just let them tell you everything and then throw it back in their face? That’s the most pathetic thing ever. Girls are so fucking ridiculous now-a-days. All they do is judge everyone else, talk shit about their “friends”, do shitty things to their “friends” and no one really has anyone’s back. It’s so fucking sad, like real shit. Everyone’s supposed to be like friends and shit, and cool with each other, but instead they just wait for the opportunity to stab a friend in the back.
It’s bullshit, pathetic and sad.
Anyways, I had a great first day at Helix c:!
---I went to the doctor today and I had to do this survey thingy and one of the questions was something like “Have you recently been depressed and thought about suicide?” And I marked yes, so when I was done with my physical my doctor asked my dad to leave and he asked me all these questions about why I was depressed, and I felt so fucking stupid….because I honestly don’t even know why I am. I just feel alone, like there’s seriously no one to talk to. Even when I’m with a whole bunch of people, I feel so fucking alone. I feel like no one cares, and I don’t really see why someone would. I just wanna sit in my room all day and sleep. I don’t even want to go out anymore.
I hate this so much, and I have no idea how to make myself feel better.
I’m going to start seeing a therapist though so maybe that’ll help. God, this really sucks.
---Fuck this.
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